Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Katt Williams for Obama

A little comic relief from all the seriousness and stress regarding the upcoming election...(NSFW)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

An old poem I found (well, 2)


From 2005.It's interesting to re-read my work, many things i've since forgotten.

Eager to embrace
The nothingness/fullness of
My failure/greatness
I exist unsteadily between them both
Waiting for one of them
To claim me as the author of my own defeat/victory
Ive existed in theory
and stood beside reality too long
Looking out as it looks in
There has been no hard work
To match my full intent
Far too many dreams and could haves
Have come in and out my mouth
Then my foot comes following after to
Stuff my hopeful mouth
To save the world from the
Bullshit that may follow the words
Or the words that may follow the bullshit
I can say these things because
they can change
But if they stay the same let me
Embrace failure for it has been chasing
Faster than I could run
Let it have me without a fight
Because if failure comes for me
I have not believed
I have not believed in the dreams I once called bullshit
Or have not followed the plans that I compulsively create
Or haven’t believed in God to answer my prayers
Then I have given up the faith that has held me all these years
Because the only true failure is in accepting it
Without a fight

And another...(I wrote last year on my birthday)

In 27 years I have learned
That all knowledge is contextual
Change is an action
And it is okay to
want what you want but
It is better to want you need
We are led by our desires
But we are often left by them
And while I have been desiring
The warm gentle touch of a
Loving hand
I have often found myself
Caressing the backs of my
Lovers with these hopeful hands
Because as folklore says
We often give to others
What we desire ourselves
And that for me is love.

A sobering moment for me...

Ok so I just went to a friend's blog and stumbled across this you tube clip of something that strikes a chord in me. I can't say that i'm surprised though. I'm surprised that people were so vocal with their bigotry but not by what they're saying. Now, I live in Ohio and these people look and sound just like the people I see everyday. Whether people wanna admit it or not, people are voting race this time around. Now I don't want to generalize, what I said was a bit over-reaching but but lets be real, some will vote for Barack to see a black man in office and others will vote for McCain becase they'll never vote for a black man in office. I know some people on both sides of the fence, but it does hurt a lil' to know that the country I live in is still divided by race. A few of my co-workers were Clinton supporters that refuse to vote for Obama, one cited that until he gets his ears pinned back that she isn't voting for him, and often refers to him as "Curious George" and I know then it has nothing to do with policies, platforms, partisanship, issues, party affiliation etc...I just smile and nod, I don't talk politics with whites, and I don't often wear my Obama buttons, and definitely don't do the bumper sticker thing because to me, it's personal and people are angry and I think it's not your political affiliation but who you're voting for that tags you and people automatically think if you vote for Obama while black means you're trying to help the movement to de-throne whites from the top of the proverbial race hierarchy in which they rule and we are the serfs. I know I take things a bit far but I just don't want any snide looks or any crazies keying my car because of who i'm supporting this time around. Anywho, i'm ranting, take a look for yourself.

My point exactly...

Is she really running for office as the second highest ranking official? I'm sorry but I think she is a joke. I'm embarassed for her.

Spell check anyone?



And they call us uneducated...

Thursday, October 16, 2008

The bottle

So i'm on you-tube listening to some of Amiri Baraka's speeches and poems and I come across this gem, this work of art by another one of my faves, Gil Scott-Heron. This song, this video, it captures a moment in time, and expresses a reality that many of us know all too well. It lyrically puts me in the mind of Erykah Badu's "Bag Lady". The bottle he sings about is a metaphor and literal at the same time, it speaks to the bottle of alcohol, the baby bottle, and the confines of a metaphoric bottle that surrounds us I could write a whole speech about what this means to me. But I won't because less is more, and i'll just post it so you can interpret this as you will...

Choices

I've always been a fan of Nikki Giovanni. She has a simple yet profound way of writing. Profound is generous, but she has this uncanny ability to capture the whole of black womanhood in her work. I find myself in her words and that is something no writer has done for me. Giovanni's work is personal and I hold some of them near and dear to me. Two of the poems that belong in my personal restrospective narrative are "Introspection" and "Choices".

CHOICES

If i can't do
what i want to do
then my job is to not
do what i don't want
to do

It's not the same thing
but it's the best i can
do


If i can't have
what i want . . . then
my job is to want
what i've got
and be satisfied
that at least there
is something more to want


Since i can't go
where i need
to go . . . then i must . . . go
where the signs point
through always understanding
parallel movement
isn't lateral


When i can't express
what i really feel
i practice feeling
what i can express
and none of it is equal


I know
but that's why mankind
alone among the animals
learns to cry


-Nikki Giovanni

Friday, October 10, 2008

A better auntie

I love my nephew. I've gotta admit, I haven't been the best auntie...But this weekend, I missed him, I wanted to go pick him up and keep him for awhile. Going to get him would have made my sister happy because I don't take him places often. I want her to understand it has nothing to do with my nephew personally but not having children or a husband makes me a little selfish with my time and space. I'm alone most of the time, so much so that I have finally assimilated and grown comfortable living inside myself if that makes any sense. I'm on the go a lot, and I rarely stay at home, so getting my nephew means being at home or finding activities, the whole idea intimidates me a bit but I think i'm finally over it. I want for him to visit as much as possible, he's my only nephew and I Love him. I know this post makes me sound like a jerk but i'm new at this, so cut me a little slack, i'm getting better.

Monday, October 06, 2008

All Mavericky


I Love Tina Fey!!!!!!

Friday, October 03, 2008

Arch in his back

Ok so as much as I hate to put Tom Foolery on my page, I just had to...I'm speechless, uh. Yeah. If you can't stomach extreme gayness then don't even do it. Just skip on to the next post.

My debate quickie


On to the next debate...Biden did a good job representing his running mate. Palin did what I expected her to do, that is avoid answering questions, use populist messages and themes, call herself a Maverick (over and over), use her gender and having so many children as a tool to woo the Clinton supporters, mispronounce words (like nuclear), mistate the facts, don a cynical smirk, wink and nod etc...I just kept expecting her to say "daunt chaaa knaw". She has this glossy eyed, overly simplistic, naive, childishly competetive nature that is quite annoying. Biden conducted himself like a true politician should, being direct, knowing the issues, stating what he knows, standing up to the obviously bulleted list of comebacks that Palin tried to throw at him. I guarantee he didn't go to debate boot camp. I'm just saying...It was a good debate, but i'm looking forward to hear Obama at the next debate, after all, I'm voting the top of the ticket. Obama shake em' off.